2 weeks and counting.

So I've got 2 weeks left in this grey town. Emerald City my ass. When you are having a rough time and constantly depressed this place sucks. "Oh what do you know? It's grey, cold and rainy again. Fuck this! I hate this place. Arrrrgh." So remaining at my desk for the next 2 weeks is going to be unbearable. Although I really can use that last pay check and dental appointment.

I have my regrests no doubt about coming back. Especially staying with Ed. What a fucking bad idea that was. Best left unsaid... if you don't know already. Anyhow at least now I have a criminal record. That always looks good on an artist's resume.

I am glad I came back to put closure on me and Stacie's divorce. Now I am moving away sad, not angry like before. This is better. I will miss the friends that I've made here in Seattle: The Launs, Sassy, Kenneth, Dawne, Slatton, Marlowe, Carly, Blane, Sherri, TDoug, Reiley, Rosie, Raven, etc. (The rest of you know I love you just as much as well.)

I hope that I land on my feet. Because one never knows. I am looking forward to the adventure. I can almost taste the freedom. Damn it tastes good. I pray that I improve my health, find peace, find a wife and make some babies.

I'll be sitting at this desk watching youtube for the next 2 weeks. Peace out!

Picking up the pieces of my life...

An
To all the friends I have alienated and hurt. I am truly sorry to have treated you all will such disrespect. I have been truly troubled over the past year. And I have tested the loyalty of you all. I did in fact go to jail recently for disrepecting a great friend. 2 days in the slammer helps a man think. I'll will do my best to be a better friend myself. I always gave everything to everyone else in my life. When Stacie and I split... I became drunk with a "fuck you all" attitude. This attitude has made me lose most of the people who truly cared about me as friends.

I have a new job starting on Friday at a local Seattle software company as an engineering manager. I have a new apartment in Belltown. I am midstream in buying new furniture, electronics, dishes, clothes, toiletries, etc. I guess for now I am content in join ranks with my fellow rats in the race. I figure if I don't I'll probably end up dead, homeless, or in jail. I'm still on a quest to be the greatest artist of all time... but my reckless "party like a rockstar" has got to be stopped. I want to be remember as a good person above all else. This past 12 months... I have not been a good person. I never meant to hurt anyone... but hurt everyone.

Sorry. Wish me luck in my newest journey to be someone better than I am today.

Peace.
-loveless