So an update... by request

I have decided to return to the states. Why you may ask? Because I found it extremely difficult to make a living in Costa Rica. With nothing to do I found myself floundering in nothingness. I have some leads on my bike in Costa Rica. I am looking at buy a new bike here in Atlanta and going on one last road trip across the country. I am attempting to park my ass in San Diego if I can find work there. It is time for the adventure to wind down and re-establish myself as a productive American Citizen. With a new Prez at least I have some hope in this country again. Costa Rica was a great healer for the pain I experienced. I still have my days... struggles with addiction... struggles with my self and where I fit into the world. But I am better. Not quite the lost angry man I was 2 years ago. So in a nut shell time to face reality and get myself a job... re-establish my credit... and enjoying the comforts that this civilized society has to offer. The journey isn't quite over, but this chapter is winding down. We'll see where this next chapter begins, but I am open to the change and accepted the chance to settle into a normal life if there is such a thing.

Too old to be a rock star!

Sometimes I think I finally discovered something inside of me!
Sometimes I think this music thing could really set me free!
I have a wisdom now to express the pain inside of me!
But I am too old to let this thing set me free!

I see my face in the mirror
I know the wrinkles in my face make me deeper!
I start doubting my ability to set myself free
I'm just gonna give in and let it take over me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

I'm gonna be this thing that youth embraces
I feel me growing old!
I feel it in my heart.
I feel me growing bold!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

Sometimes I think I finally discovered something inside of me!
Sometimes I think this music thing could really set me free!
I have a wisdom to express the pain inside of me!
But I am too old to let this thing set me free!

I see my face in the mirror
I know the wrinkles in my face make me deeper!
I start doubting my ability to set myself free
I'm just gonna give in and let it take over me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

I am gonna be a rock star today!
Today is all I got!
I am never told old to be free!
I am never told old to be me!

So rock out old man!
So rock out young child!
Sing it like you mean it!
Sing it now and sing it loud!

I am free!
I am me!
I am rocking it loud
I am rocking it free

I AM ME!

Oh B! Oh B! Brace yourself!

You are about to crush some one you love. But you need to rip it off like a band aid. You need to do it! You know you need to... but you know it's gonna start a chain reaction that you aren't ready for. You are about to crush some one who is in love with you. Too bad you aren't in love with them. Good luck! Do the right thing! You know I am here with you.You are about to enter the worst year of your life. I am glad you finally dropped your happy facade and shed a tear. Makes me realize you finally have a grasp of what you need to do! Just do it already. Hang on because it is gonna be the worst ride you will ever be on. Breaking some one's heart that you love is not easy! GODSPEED! Onto to being a rockstar!