Escape from the Vortex.

Friday, June 5, 2009

So an update... by request

I have decided to return to the states. Why you may ask? Because I found it extremely difficult to make a living in Costa Rica. With nothing to do I found myself floundering in nothingness. I have some leads on my bike in Costa Rica. I am looking at buy a new bike here in Atlanta and going on one last road trip across the country. I am attempting to park my ass in San Diego if I can find work there. It is time for the adventure to wind down and re-establish myself as a productive American Citizen. With a new Prez at least I have some hope in this country again. Costa Rica was a great healer for the pain I experienced. I still have my days... struggles with addiction... struggles with my self and where I fit into the world. But I am better. Not quite the lost angry man I was 2 years ago. So in a nut shell time to face reality and get myself a job... re-establish my credit... and enjoying the comforts that this civilized society has to offer. The journey isn't quite over, but this chapter is winding down. We'll see where this next chapter begins, but I am open to the change and accepted the chance to settle into a normal life if there is such a thing.

Too old to be a rock star!

Sometimes I think I finally discovered something inside of me!
Sometimes I think this music thing could really set me free!
I have a wisdom now to express the pain inside of me!
But I am too old to let this thing set me free!

I see my face in the mirror
I know the wrinkles in my face make me deeper!
I start doubting my ability to set myself free
I'm just gonna give in and let it take over me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

I'm gonna be this thing that youth embraces
I feel me growing old!
I feel it in my heart.
I feel me growing bold!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

Sometimes I think I finally discovered something inside of me!
Sometimes I think this music thing could really set me free!
I have a wisdom to express the pain inside of me!
But I am too old to let this thing set me free!

I see my face in the mirror
I know the wrinkles in my face make me deeper!
I start doubting my ability to set myself free
I'm just gonna give in and let it take over me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

Set me free!
Free from doubt
Free from time
Free from Me!

I am gonna be a rock star today!
Today is all I got!
I am never told old to be free!
I am never told old to be me!

So rock out old man!
So rock out young child!
Sing it like you mean it!
Sing it now and sing it loud!

I am free!
I am me!
I am rocking it loud
I am rocking it free

I AM ME!

Oh B! Oh B! Brace yourself!

You are about to crush some one you love. But you need to rip it off like a band aid. You need to do it! You know you need to... but you know it's gonna start a chain reaction that you aren't ready for. You are about to crush some one who is in love with you. Too bad you aren't in love with them. Good luck! Do the right thing! You know I am here with you.You are about to enter the worst year of your life. I am glad you finally dropped your happy facade and shed a tear. Makes me realize you finally have a grasp of what you need to do! Just do it already. Hang on because it is gonna be the worst ride you will ever be on. Breaking some one's heart that you love is not easy! GODSPEED! Onto to being a rockstar!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

The Eagle has landed!

I am in New Orleans. I had the pleasure of singing with a band last night on Bourbon Street. We did some Doors and Stones covers. I am getting better at this singing shit. At least this "rock" singing shit. Although, I could not find a hostel last night so I ended up sleeping on a bench in the park. Oh my, somethings never change.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

There is a walking stick(insect) on my head at this moment!

He seems to like Metallica! He(she) will not leave the vicinity of my headphones! I love the nature here. I love you lil dude! You are a part of my experience! Thanks! You look cool and crazy like some kinda weird camo bug! Stay up there as long as you want. I am not scared! I love you lil dude! METALLICA RULES! "Am I evil! Yes I am. I am Man". Obviously you don't know the lyrics! LOL!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Motorcycles are dangerous in the hands of a drunk!

Motorcycles are lethal especially after drinking. I sat and drank with my friends last night and Scheffeil, a German friend, had some police tape that said "Danger/Peligroso. I got the stupid idea to go into town and post some tape around as a joke. Well with no helmet and traveling way too fast I hit a rut in the road and lost control. I went down like a rock and my bike went over a cliff. Luckily a tree stopped it from falling about 100 feet to a most certain death of the bike below. I was luckily, albeit stupid. I landed on my face and am extremely sore this morning. As I lay in the mountain road at 1 am I realized no one was coming to help me. Every time I tried to get the bike up it slid a little more. So I decided to hike back to the village in pain. I knocked on Jorge's window. "Wake up! I crashed my bike and I need your help!". "It's 1am dude WTF?" He replied. I told him it was important. So we jumped in his Land Cruiser and headed back to the scene. I took him 3 tries to get my bike back over the edge with a tow rope. There is a huge dent in the rim and a dent where my balls hit the gass tank. Ouch! But we got it up. I rode the crippled machine back to the village with Jorge behind me in the truck.

Today I reflect what an idiot I was. And Conrad conveyed to me how it was a real let down to my friends and family to do something so selfish and stupid. For that I am sorry. I am extremely lucky it did not turn out worse. I really should be hurt more than I am if not dead. But I have been spared this time. And I truly hope I don't do something that stupid again.

So I got a bike for sale cheap!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Stuck in the Middle

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Amazing how things change as we grow older...

This cute kid...

... turned into a real asshole at some point...

...and this little guy...

... turned into motorcycle adventure man...

Flying makes me happy

These are photos from my last official passenger at the flying crocodile hotel. Thanks Jared.

Monday, May 4, 2009

My friend Blake knows how to travel!

An Adobe colleague... went to Thailand! I WANNA GO!

http://netjibbing.com/Thailand2009/

Did I mention I could fly?

Of all the things I've done this has to be the best. I am actually able to get in a kite with a lawn mower motor and take to the skies. This has got to be my greatest achievement. To fly like men have only dreamed... makes me a part of a bunch of pioneers who take risks. As time passes what I do will seem insane but it is so natural. I feel every breeze and lean like a little kid to steer. Eventually there will be no free form of flight like this available to men. It will be considered dangerous and outlawed... but for me right now... it is my driving force! Flying and art. That is why I was born. So far as I can tell. May you all experience what IT is! Because it passes and sometimes you forget about it. But when you remember... IT IS BIG! Keep on pushing my fellow men. Cuz, I'm getting tired of pushing. I know I always will... but damn it takes a lot out of a man. What I would give for a hot shower and a sofa? Yum! Sofa!